Day 81: Look of The Week

My roommate L. Doesn't she have the most down-to-earth style? Extra pretty points for her.

-M

Day 80: I'm a Poet And Didn't Even Know It

The Natural Instinct To Love

We are born with a

Natural instinct to love

But when we don't feel

Love,

We hate. And that shit

Seeps into people souls

And sticks like guacamole

In your rug,

It’s easier to hate because

You get to  turn people down before

They get a chance to do it

First

Well, to all the people

Who turned me down first,

Take my fist

And stick it up your ass

Because I have no need for negativity

Like my brother needs a joint

And he is an addict,

And an alcoholic,

And an asshole,

He even had the audacity

To ask for a friendship on Facebook

Before excepting my request

For a relationship in real life.

Its like I cant do anything alone

Anymore with out being ashamed

I don't have someone to document

My every step.

I tripped going up the steps today.

I got 13 likes.

You like my pain?

That’s the shit I’m talking about

Pain is what we like to hear

Well hear this

I’M IN PAIN

Did you hear me?

No you just stare right through me

And cant even force the tiniest

Bit of remorse

Forget about a tear

Because I cant bring myself

To cry

Anymore, they've been used up on

African baby’s swollen stomachs

Stories we cant even stomach

Because our tummies are too full

Of trans fats to let the real suffering

Seep into our hearts

That have hatred branded like a fence of

Barbed wired surrounding the outer Barrier

Ever since we sat at the lunch table

Alone, topless pictures of you were Leaked

To the whole school,

Told you weren’t pretty enough,

Lied about your boyfriends getting a little too rough,

Your daddy’s dying of cancer and stuff.

We were all born with a natural instinct

To love.

So bulldoze the walls

You've left up for so long,

Smile every once in a while,

Because I don't care

If you chipped your tooth drunkenly

(or was that me?)

I like it better than

The mask you try to fool me with.

Don’t fool with the cool because

The cool don't fool

I know there was some bullshit you had

To pull through–

We all got our share

Of ugly genetics passed down

From our bipolar pop-pops and

Alcoholic aunts that tell stories

Of how they crashed their car because

Of postpartum depression.

Well, that's depressing,

And sometimes I think I’m depressed,

But turns out I just forgot

To eat lunch today.

So don't turn to your pharmacist, psychiatrist,

Therapist, your raging fists, pissed off parents,

But maybe your own consciousness.

Live the life your jealous of

Because you can never envy yourself

Love yourself

But don't get too cocky

Take care of yourself

But don't get too crazy

Actually,

I take that back.

Go get crazy.

Not wake up on Friday

Morning in mid-sweat from the

Clothes you wore last night and

Without any recollection of actions

You made after 10:00 PM in dire

Need of a drink

From the fountain

Of I hope everyone else forgot what

I did last night

No, get crazy like

Give up alcohol for 3 months

Just to see what it’s like to live sober

Or write a poem.

Because crazy things

like that, can change things

like the world.

-M.

Day 70: How Cool? ...ICE COLD

      Have you ever gotten one of those urges to do something out of the blue for no apparent reason? Well yesterday I had a very stressful day. I woke up early to drop off something at work so they asked if I wanted to work, after class ended at 11 I worked from 12-6, then I had to go to a film meeting, then write a response paper for a class. Not to mention I signed up to join a THON (a 46 hour dance marathon to raise money for pediatric cancer) committee and scheduled an interview for monday. As I was a little overwhelmed with  the activity of my day I just had the impulse to do something out of schedule, something unexpected. So my roommate and I went to go get piercings. I got my rook pierced and she got her nose (so much cooler). It was such a fun experience. The guy who pierced us was actually a 20 year old who moved to Happy Valley from Ohio just about 2 weeks prior and was so cool and to be honest we felt pretty badass afterwards...

-M.

Day 68: F.R.I.E.N.D.S.

    nick@nite has just begun to play reruns of FRIENDS late at night. As happy as I was to find this out - it probably is one of the worst things they could have done for college students. When I am trying to get work done, I now have even more excuses to procrastinate and stay up late. But in honor of the best TV series.. ever.. I thought I would show some pics of my friends whose style I recently admired!

 How cute does she look walking home from class?!

 I'm in LOVE with everything about this. The sweetheart, strapless top and gorgeous trousers are both from Urban Outfitters. And I just adore her new short hair cut! She is just adorable in every way.

This is my sister with one of my best guy friends. The dress and belt are both mine (H&M dress and JCrew belt) but I am obsessed with the shoes she paired them with! He looks pretty spiffy as well in a nice button down, khaki shorts, and Sperry Topsiders --well done guys, well done!

-M.

Day 67: My Dewy Decimal System

   I was in the library looking for a poetry book, in hopes of finding a poem to recite for my english class. But of course I got distracted, took some pics, and thought about how I think of my closet as my own little library. Some have history, some are newer additions I added to the collection. My clothes are put together by category and look just as pretty as books on a shelf!

-M.

Day 66: "Work Dat Updo!"

    To show off the revealing back of her shirt - I loosely curled and pinned up my roommates hair. Isn't she ppuuuuurrrrttttyyy?!!

Day 65: SURPRISE!

    Last Monday, my roommates and I planned a surprise party for our 4th roommate. I hate the format I put the video in but I just wanted to give her something so she'd remember her 19th birthday was an awesome one. 

-M.

Day 57: In Desperate Need of A Photographer

I'm on the far left, accompanied by my baby freshman! Shirt from Alloy; H&M shorts; Jcrew belt; Simply Vera Vera Wang nude heels.

Me with the BIRTHDAY GIRL! H&M dress; Denim button down is from a thrift store; Rag & Bone belt; Urban Outfitter booties

My roommate felt artistic with this shot ;) My cheetah blouse is from Marshall's; H&M skirt; Antique necklaces; Urban Outfitter's shoes

Day 54: You Win Some, Ya Loose Some

    As everyone knows, and has heard in every kind of cliche, life consists of cycles of ups and downs. Sometimes you will have months of bad things happen to you and then all of a sudden things turn out for the better or vice versa, you have the world in the palm of your hand and one wrong move and everything comes crashing down. But in other cases, mine in particular, you have one day that amazing things happen to you and then you hear some really bad news. You want to be happy, but you can't stop thinking about the bad. Or I am focused on what I missed out on but feel bad for not appreciating all the good that I have in my life.
    This morning I got a call from the Manager for the Urban Outfitters that will be opening in State College this month that informed me that they were offering me the job of a Sales Associate for Urban! I have no experience in any professional work field and there were so many people that applied to the job, argo I screamed on my way to class when I received the news (my apologies to anyone walking on Allen street this morning).  Immediately I called my mom to tell her, but my mom had news as well. The news that no one ever wants to hear. My neighbor and father to a dear friend of mine passed away late last night/early this morning. He fought a long and hard fight against cancer and my thoughts and prayers have been going out to their family for a very long time. (I also just saw that I didn't win the trip to Paris... kind of the least of my worries at this point).
     Today is a day I don't really know what to do with myself. I have things I know I should do and get done: homework, celebrate birthdays, enjoy the first football game of the season. But these things seem so trivial compared to what I'm feeling. So I'm going to head home for the weekend and hug my dad .

-M.